Saturday, March 12, 2011

Shedding My Skin

Every cell in the human body regenerates. Like snakes, in our own way, we shed our skin. Biologically, we are brand new people. We may the look same, the change isn’t apparent, but sure enough we’re changed. It’s the way that people try not to change that is unnatural. The way we cling to the things that were, instead of being what they are. The way we hold on to old memories instead of making new ones.  I had a revelation this week, and I see a whole new turn in leaf happening because of it. I’ve realized that I have been holding on to my old life. Wishing for things of my past and being depressed when realizing that it will never be again. This is odd because I joined the Peace Corps for whole new experiences and life. I wanted to push myself more than I ever have. No regrets. Just do, and bust my tail to do everything I could to make things happen for myself. Nevertheless I found myself trying not to change, and up until now I have felt…off. Say what you will but when push comes to shove most people always opt for the comfort of their own familiarities. Wishing, hoping, and praying for things to stay the same. This is what I was doing and this is where my revelation came in. I have been trying to be the same person that I was before the Peace Corps.  My training at the University for teaching in most ways, is training for teaching in the States, and I have realized that it does not work here. My way of handling situations back home does not work when trying to handle situations here. Beliefs I had back home do not apply here. So my revelation- basically, stop believing the common belief most people have... that everything is permanent. It’s time to morph, merge, and grow. In order to grow you must shed that old layer of skin. So I’m shedding, and in turn, I’m changing. How we experience all of this, well, that’s up to us.

3 comments:

  1. i loved this Lindsey. it is so true. other than shedding our skin, i totally agree with the part about our university training. i basically have had to start from scratch in my teaching ethics and ideas since being in china. it's a totally different ball game.
    i think im gonna post this in my blog by the way. i love it that much and feel the same way :)

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  2. From a different viewpoint, but I think a similar vein

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  3. I. Love. This. That is such an awesome blog post. Makes me extremely excited. I'm happy you're all settled and teaching with your OWN CLASSROOM. Awesome. Send me a message when you get a chance letting me know some details about your life. I would love to be updated :)

    Daisy

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